Breaking up with Booze and Porn: Day One

So far, I haven't been able to manage my addictions or manage to stay sober, but I am hoping this time is the last time.

So, here I am staring at the screen. I have a vague memory of being on this site, or at least a similar one, some years ago. But like so much of my life, it is a bit of a blur.

My Journey Begins Today

I have just begun the process/journey of recovery today…at least I hope I have. Alcoholism is my main foe, but sex addiction – mainly now in form of pornography – is running a close second. And now I fear it might take an even stronger hold without the booze.

I know that, if I can somehow stay off the booze, I have a real chance to make a good life for myself – an honest to goodness shot at enjoying happiness…

I am 35 years old and blessed to have good people in my life. I know that, if I can somehow stay off the booze, I have a real chance to make a good life for myself – an honest to goodness shot at enjoying happiness with not only the people I know and care for today, but also with the people I hope will come into my life as time goes along.

So far, I haven’t been able to manage my addictions or manage to stay sober, but I am hoping this time is the last time.

I honestly think that letting go of the fantasy and the love I have for my vices – alcohol and porn – is the big thing. But how does one totally let go at this early stage? Early!!! I have to laugh at myself. Sure, it has been years since I first realized I am alcoholic and addict. So not that early Gussie boy at all…

Creating Accountability for Myself

I guess I am writing this to make a record of my efforts this time around. I’m hoping this is a way to hold myself accountable and finally do what I need to do in order to get clean and sober.

Day one off booze! Can’t yet say same with porn, though. One step at a time, though, right?

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